(She has been with her dad since this past weekend.)
This year's back to school night was not the normal yearly thing...
The tradition of doing that with her was not there.
As I got her schedule and read what classes she had, I didn't have my kiddo there to talk to her about her classes and see how she felt about them. I didn't get to see her expression when she saw what period PE would be.
As I found one of her new teachers (they were not in their rooms, they were wondering around so finding her teachers was not an easy task), I did not have my kiddo there to introduce to her. She asked me what she was like and what she could expect from her. I showed her a picture off my phone and told her what she was like and what I thought she could expect from her. I absolutely loved this teacher. I probably would have searched for the other 5 if she would have been with me. Without her, it just wasn't the same.
As I met the new principal and introduced myself, she was not with me. I expressed my excitement for the excitement the principal had during the slide show at the beginning of the evening, but my kiddo was not there to see that excitement.
As I waited in line to pay for her gym shirts, I did not have her with me to talk about the experience and watch her talk to 2 girls who were behind us, who had the same teacher she did last year.
As I went to find her locker, I did not have her with me to see what she liked about where it was. Or didn't get to see her try to unlock it.
As I walked the halls, I couldn't show her where all her classes would be. We couldn't walk together to each one and get a feel for how her first day at Middle School would go.
I know some people's traditions are not the same as mine. As I walked around the school without my 6th grader, my heart broke a little each step I took. My kiddo is growing up. What is important to me, is not important to her. And I understand... She won't be my little girl forever. However, she will always be my little girl in my heart. Tonight as I left the school without my kiddo, I realized that our life would never be the same as it was in elementary school and my kiddo would never understand my sadness of her not being there tonight! I love my kiddo more than words could ever say. I am so proud of the young lady she is growing into. I pray that her first year at Middle School will be AMAZING and each year will continue to be better than the last. I pray that she flourishes and does her best and realizes that she can do ANYTHING she sets her mind to! I am thankful God choose me to be her momma.
The top picture is her new principal. Can I just say how excited I am that her school colors are PURPLE AND GOLD... And of course her principal was wearing matching colors. She was pretty cool. And bottom picture is AMAZING. It was hanging on a window in the school library. And how true is it. You can't succeed without a little or a lot of failure... but that success is worth every second of failure.