Friday, July 10, 2015

The hardest longest 14 days of my LIFE!

On June 29th I headed to the airport to drop off my brother and his wife, along with my 7 year old baby girl to head back to Louisisana. They have been asking me, along with my parents, for the last year if they could take her for some time during the summer. Finally my sister asked if they could have her for a month. Of course my reply was NO. That is too long! So we agreed on 2 weeks. I then, talked to her dad and we talked about if we were okay with this for sure before they booked the tickets. WE agreed and then they booked the tickets.

On the day I took her to the airport I was super strong and I decided I was not going to cry. I was very proud of myself for not crying up to this point. I would have waited until I drove home to cry, but it didn't last that long. After hugging my baby girl and I pulled her away from me, she had HUGE alligator tears in her eyes. None fell down her cheek, but after seeing that I lost it. I grabbed her tightly and didn't want to let her know. I made it short and sweet and then talked about all the fun that they were going to have and then watched them walk inside... I left once I couldn't see them anymore or once I noticed she wasn't turning around anymore.

I cried the whole way home. Her being at her dad's house I have gotten use to, but this was totally different. She was in a different state and that was what was putting knots in my stomach. I totally trusted my parents and my brother and sister with her... it was just the fact that she was so far away from me if anything happened.

It got easier as the days went by. I walked around feeling lost. My little mini me wasn't here to talk my ears off and she wasn't here asking me questions. It was the longest 2 weeks of my life! My parents and her have their boarding passes printed for tomorrow's flights and today is pack day down there. I am super excited, words can not explain it all!

She had such a great time down in Louisiana. I can not thank my family enough for showing her a great time. She was able to spend time with her grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, great aunts, great grandfather and extended cousins. She went to the water park down there and she swan many many days. She had a few melt downs with missing her dad and I, but she did such a great job and I am so super proud of my baby girl. She has made me extremely proud of her. I can not wait until tomorrow evening when I can hug my baby girl and not let her go!

My princess on the 4th of July at MawMaw's house!

La Push Weekend

Here are a few pictures from our resort and the beach...

Second Beach at La Push

Our 2nd hike was to hike through the woods to get to Second Beach. The only way you can get to this beach is to hike a mile through the woods. It was a great hike and there was one spot where I wasn't sure how I would make it on the way back, but I did it. I was so proud of myself. Here are a few pictures from the hike to the beach :) 

Sol Duc Falls

The next stop on our drive to La Push was the Sol Duc Falls. It was at Olympic National Park and I was so excited that I found this place for us to hike and go check out. It was definitely an amazing experience. The hike was 0.8 miles to the falls and the same distance back. The hike was not too bad. It had some up hill and down hill spots, but nothing I couldn't handle. You definitely had to watch your step though hiking here. They had roots everywhere and you could easily be tripped.
We just took our time and enjoyed every step of the way! Listening to the roaring water falls was even more amazing. It is so peaceful and relaxing!

The picture above was on our hike to the falls.

This was the actual falls... SO BEAUTIFUL!

Crescent Lake

My sister and I planned a weekend trip to La Push, WA while they were here. We had been planning this trip for over 5 years and I was so excited that it was finally booked. We booked a 2 bedroom motel room that was fully furnished. How exciting. It was around a 3 1/2 hour drive, but I look forward to doing it over and over again to find new places to hike and check out! 

On the way we stopped at Crescent Lake. They call this "Lady of the Lake," and many people say that this lake is haunted. Hallie Illingworth went missing in 1937 and in 1940 her body was floating in the water at Crescent Lake. People say that it is still haunted after all these years.

All I can say is it is an amazing view. Its so beautiful and definitely a great experience to drive around!

 My husband and I enjoying our view!

Space Needle FUN!

The day after my brother and his wife got here we decided to go to Seattle for the day. It was a lot of fun and definitely a lot of laughs! I was super excited because C has never been to the top of the Space Needle. We get there and we didn't have to wait too long. We waited less than 10 minutes for our turn to go up to the top! The elevator ride is pretty scary if you are scared of heights. With glass walls you can see it all as you go up! C was pretty nervous and held onto her Paran Derrick really tight. She looked out this time. When we got up there she stayed more towards the inner wall instead of looking out. She did however LOVE the look out telescopes and looked through every one of them. It was super cute. 

Here is a picture of the 4 of us before we headed down!

And here is my precious darling daughter... I wonder what she thinks when she looks out into the unknown... 

She did however decide to ride the elevator the opposite way so she did not have to look out the glass walls. She did fine. And it was a fun experience for us all! I think my brother and his wife enjoyed it. 

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Happy Fathers day to my daddy...

I hope my daddy has a great Father's Day. He has been the best dad a girl could ever hope for and I am so excited to see him on July 11th.... I love you daddy!

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

The struggle with losing friends after a divorce...

In an ideal world losing friends and family after a divorce would never happen, but that is not the real world. I would love to say that I didn't lose friends and family after my divorce, but I did.

After my divorce I can't really say I lost friends. I think that the people I lost in my life were not my real friends to begin with. They were my ex husbands friends and I became friends because of him. After the divorce the friendship just wasn't there.

I think the biggest relationship that was altered was my relationship with my father in law. He was my best friend for so many years and we spent a lot of time together... Getting a divorce changed that. I would love to say that things aren't a little awkward when I do see my ex in laws, but they are. I can't explain it, it just is... I think in a way I am super sad about that, but in a way I am blessed with the time that I was able to share with him and all the things I was able to learn in that time frame. My daughter is super blessed to have such great grandparents and I look forward to her relationship with them growing over the years.

My dad said something right after I separated from my ex that has stuck with me to today... he said: what will define you and anyone else in this position or some other circumstance is how you handle what yourself in times like these. You can let it tear you down or you can learn and become a better person after.

Don't let something like a divorce define you. Learn from it, better yourself and life life to the fullest. Take time to grieve and move on... I know its sounds so easy, but it isn't. It will be a hard battle, but you will get through it!

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Farewell Thoughts

I wrote the final article for our newsletter for our MOPS year and I wanted to share it here.. 

Farewell Thoughts by Michelle Cruz, PM coordinator

This year started with the theme ‘Be You Bravely’! And my year with MOPS definitely started out that way… When I was asked to be the co-coordinator for MOPS, I thought why me? I was not ready to graduate from MOPS yet, so I decided to interview for the position. I didn’t know what I was getting into, but I soon learned how to ‘Be Me Bravely.’  What an amazing theme for us mommas who are trying our best. Sometimes, all we can do is to be us bravely! 
At times this year, being brave has been tough. As I write this, I am currently waiting for our end-of-the-year meeting Purchase Order to be approved because I had forgotten to turn it in. With five days left before the end-of-the-year meeting and no supplies purchased, no party stuff prepped and no approval to spend the money... I sat and cried. The chance that my error could affect all the ladies at MOPS is a hard thing to take on. But I am human and I make mistakes, we all do. This is MOPS life, this is our life.
I was doing some research for what I wanted to say for the final newsletter before I graduate, and I found this poem and wanted to share it with you all!

A symbol of courage, a feather enables flight. 
Risking heights, a first flight requires bravery to jump from the nest.
A bird will fail to experience all it was made for, if it fails to fly!
(The same is true for us)
May this year change your life, 
May you hear whispers of hope,
Stirring in your soul…
May MOPS remind you to breathe in and breathe out,
Because we are in this together.
The first step may test our bravery,
But courage is the key around our necks,
Be you, BRAVELY!

I cannot imagine my life without being a part of MOPS, so I am struggling to deal with the emotions of graduating out this year. The tears will come eventually, but 

I found a quote online that made me smile. It says: “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.” I have made so many wonderful friends throughout my years at MOPS and I can definitely say that MOPS has changed my life for the better. I have grown so much in MOPS and by stepping into leadership. There were some crazy moments this year, but I hope that you have all had a great time. Even with the highs and lows, I have tried my best to be a great co-coordinator for you ladies. Thank you all for making my life with MOPS incredible. I appreciate all of you and I can’t wait to hear how MOPS continues to grow throughout the years!

This is the year I will be stronger, bravery, kinder and unstoppable! This year I will be FIERCE!

So, ladies… don’t forget to grab your BRAVE self and get ready to flourish.

Monday, May 18, 2015

Allergies are so miserable...

I went to an allergist once and had been tested for any allergies. They found out that I was allergic to cats and ragweeds. Well, if you don't know what ragweeds are... they are everywhere in Washington state.

Other than that I have not started allergy shots or anything like that. I take allergy meds when I need to and sometimes I can go months without taking anything. It flares up and goes away randomly so I just never know when it will start.

Allergies are definitely not fun and I wish I didn't have to deal with it, but I do so I just deal with it... I hope and pray most of you out there don't have to deal with all the crazy attacks that I get to deal with.

If you are allergic to anything, what are you allergic to?

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Happy Birthday to my dear husband...

For the last couple of years, I have managed to book some really fun out of town trips for my husbands birthday. Last year, our friends Tom and Jenn went with us as we travelled to Long Beach and enjoyed a weekend staying on the beach. It was an amazing weekend and definitely one of my favorite out of town trips.

This year, we were going to go out of town for his birthday, but we decided to stay in town. We went to watch the Avengers at the IPIC theater in Redmond. Its the theater where you can sit in recliners if you pick the right seats and they serve you food there. It was amazing. The food was not the best I have ever had, but it was good. We spent the evening with friends after and had cake. Sunday we went to eat dinner at The Crab Pot for his actual birthday and it was just an all and all great weekend with my husband. I love our time together!

Planning his birthday's get more fun as the years go by!

Happy birthday to my dear husband. The man that has taught me so much in life as well as taught me to LOVE myself for the person I am. He has made me more confident in life and his love and devotion for me grows with each day. I hate being away from him and when I leave to go to work I dream about the second he gets home and I get to see my handsome husband's face. I have always dreamed about a love like this and he has made those dreams come true. He is a blessing from God and I love this man more than he will ever know!

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Break The Chains 5k Walk

Today I walked, along with my best friend and her kiddos, in the 5K walk for Break the Chains, which is people again human trafficking. There were over 800 people registered. And I definitely feel like most of them were there. It was a great time and we enjoyed it. The kids did great!

Thanks to my gal Jenn for doing it with me.

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Happy Mother's Day Momma

This lady is the most amazing woman that I have ever met. I am blessed and thankful that I get to call her my momma. From the day I was born, she has loved me unconditionally. I have not always made life easy for her, but she has never stopped loving me. And to this day she is always with me. We don't live in the same state anymore, but this woman is with me everywhere I go. She is with me when I say ya'll. She is with me as I make my grocery shopping lists. She is with me as I sing and read stories to my baby girl. She is with me when the trees bloom and the flowers pop out. She is with me when I look in the mirror!!! She is with me when I am cooking or I am baking. I remember all the things she has done over the years for us. She is with me when I am making my favorite meals that she made for me growing up. She is with me when the Holiday's come around. I am just like her in so many ways. She will never realize how just alike we are. She is my mother.... She carried me around inside her belly for many many months. She was finally getting her baby girl and I was definitely a momma's girl. I might be 35 but I will forever be a momma's little girl. 

I have learned how to be a great mother from her. I have learned how to love with my whole heart and do it with the best intentions. I have learned how to cherish every moment God gives you and never take anything for granted. I have learned that life is short and you make the best out of any situation. We spent many nights making the best of the bad storms that rolled through Sulphur in the hallway of our childhood home. There were many memories made on the front porch swing that was at my childhood home... The memories make my heart full every time I remember something that happened growing up. 

To my amazing mother. Thank you for raising me with manners and with love. Thank you for teaching me all that I have gained over the many years I lived with you and dad. You are an amazing woman and I have always loved you more than words could ever say. You are my hero momma and I am so thankful God chose you to be my momma!

Have a wonderful Mother's day momma and I love you more!

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

I AM...

Our MOPS group had our mother's day meeting last night and let me tell you it was AMAZING. My dear friend Rebecca was asked to speak for our meeting and it was a blessing to all the ladies that were able to attend. I wanted to write down how the evening went for those that were not able to make it. Hopefully they can be just as blessed.

The song that played at the beginning was pretty amazing as well. It was "The Real Me" by Natalie Grant. Here are the words in case you haven't heard the song yet:

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

The goal is for you to be: FEARLESSLY AUTHENTIC

I am who I was created to be!

# 1 is I AM ME
I am me, because you are you! Your suppose to be YOU! You were created to be you and no one else. You have a story to tell. It doesn't define you at all.... Focusing on you is not SELFISH! Know what you can do and do it well! (If you haven't read the story of Ruth, it is highly suggested)

#2 is I am courageous. Your daily encounters do MATTER! God is greater and will put you in situations that you don't want to be in only to grow you later. Trust Him, because He has your back! Move on from the I am ME... grow!

#3 is I am a mom.
NOT just or but... I AM A MOM. It is a life changing job.

REAL life is NOT our social media life. Real life is waking up with NO makeup and encouraging yourself to get ready for the day. Real life is crying when you need to cry and realizing that is OKAY!

Your words MATTER!

Don't judge. Don't compare.

In order to change the I am, start thinking positive! To change the I am's, start declaring! ENCOURAGE each other.

She ended the evening with each of us grabbing a post card and writing our name on one side. On the other side we passed the card around and the ladies wrote words of affirmation about you. And then we were given a window marker and we were assigned homework. The homework was to write on your mirror at home 3 I am's each morning and then take a picture in front of it and post it on Facebook.

My picture is below... My daughter wanted to be in the picture of course. I asked her what I am this morning and she said 35. That is my number 1 I am. I wrote the next 2 for me. I will continue to do this daily... Its a great reminder that you are not just a mom, not just a daughter, not just a friend... you are you... and today I AM...

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Essential Oils

I have started a collection of Essential Oils. I have used them a few times on different things and they seem to help.

MY FAVORITE one is cedarwood. It isn't my favorite scent, but I use it on my scalp where I feel I am losing my hair and what do you know... a few months after starting it I am noticing baby hairs are popping up. Makes me excited.

I have also used peppermint with being nauseated and it has definitely helped before. It also helps with my headaches sometimes. If they become a migraine, it is harder to get it to work, but the light ones it sure does help!

I currently have:

  • Stress Away
  • Lavender
  • Peppermint
  • Lemon
  • Peace and Calming
  • Cedarwood
  • Eucalyptus Blue
  • Orange
  • Thieves
The ones I have on my wish list are:
  • I would really love a diffuser... but I also want an aroma USB diffuser and a USB orb diffuser
  • Purification Oil
  • Frankincense Oil
  • Kidscents Oil Collection

Friday, May 1, 2015

Boston Marathon and my parent's...

April 15th, 2013 will be a day that I will never forget in my life. The events of that day will stay with me forever.

It is the day that my daddy ran in the Boston Marathon. In September of 2012, my parents came here to visit and while they were here we all went to Burlington for my dad to run a marathon in Washington state. I didn't know at the time, but if he did well enough he would qualify himself for the Boston Marathon, the following year. It was an amazing experience to watch my dad finish his marathon here... he even did well enough that he qualified to run in the Boston Marathon.

So, mom and dad planned their trip up north and they flew out. I knew on April 15th when I got to work that my dad would have already started the run. I got to work and I pulled up the website where I could watch him as he ran. There was a tracker that had a little man icon that was running and as dad got farther the man went farther on the tracker. It was awesome for us kids, who were watching his progress from afar.

Around 11:45 am I noticed that my dad's man on the tracker quit moving farther. It was still running, but it was running in place. I got a text from my oldest brother shortly after that and he asked if I had talked to mom and dad yet. I said no. His only reply was, "Turn on the news." With that comment, my heart dropped. I lost my breath for a few moments. I knew something happened. I started shaking and quickly opened Google and typed in Boston Marathon. It pulled up different things, but when I saw the headline 2 bombs just went off near the finish line at the Boston Marathon, I just started crying. I dialed my dad's number with no answer. I texted my middle brother and asked if he had heard from mom and dad. I started to have a panic attack. My boss came in and asked what was going on and all I could do was point to the screen. He went into his office and he turned on the news. When I walked into his office and saw the destruction that was happening over there, I could barely breath. I kept telling myself that dad's tracker was in between the 2 bombs and my mom was at the finish line waiting for him. I could not move. I could not talk. I just kept calling my dad's phone praying he would answer. I asked people to start praying for them and I just sat there and waited. I went outside a few times to catch my breath... And then all of a sudden all the texts and posts on Facebook started asking me if I had talked to my parents yet and if I knew if they were okay. I had no answers. I didn't know what to tell everyone.

It was the LONGEST 40 minutes of my life.... finally my phone rang and my dad was on the other end telling me that they were both okay! He said that he was about 50 feet from the first bomb that went off and then he heard the second one go off behind him. My dad had angels surrounding him that day. It took me a good 2-3 hours to quit shaking after talking to my dad. I also wasn't completely okay until I talked to my mom which happened later in the day. But I am extremely thankful that my dad and mom were okay. We are all thankful for that!

I am extremely sad and my heart hurts for all those that were hurt and affected by the bombings. My parent's were extremely lucky and blessed, but some were not. My prayers continue to go out to those who are not able to say they were blessed!

This picture is with him and his medal after he got back to Louisiana. He sure is one of my favorite human's ever!

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Buried Time Capsule

I did bury a time capsule during my lifetime and it was an amazing experience. When my childhood friends Heather, Shelley and I buried a time capsule we were around 7 or 8, I think. We buried it in the back of Heather's back yard. We told each other that on the eve of our high school graduation we would dig it up.

The eve of our graduation came. Shelley had moved away, but Heather and I were still living in the same houses. We went into her backyard with our shovels in hand. Her mom had a camera and a flash light and cheered us on. It took us a few hours to find out where it was actually buried. Her poor dad's backyard looked horrible after we were done.

But we found the jar we buried and for the most part we could recognize everything we buried. It was so fun to do that with a great friend and remember different things that meant something to us back in the day.

I would definitely recommend this to any child growing up. Maybe my parent's will let the girls bury a time capsule when they build their new house down the road. We shall see.
Have you ever buried a time capsule and dug it up?

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

My First Job

My first job of course was babysitting all my nieces and nephews. I did that from the time I was trusted to do it until I moved to Washington state.

My first real paying job where I worked Monday - Friday was at a place called Chrisope Technologies in Lake Charles. It was a microbiology lab and I worked in the supply department. We did inventory on supplies, and we filled orders that were sent to different labs around the world... the samples were blood, urine, tb, etc. It was a pretty neat and fun job. The group of ladies I worked with were fun to work with as well minus a few here and there. But all and all it was a great first job!

Saturday, April 25, 2015



If you have never been on the site/app... it is a website/app where you go and you type in ANYTHING you are interested in. For example, I type in crockpot meals. It will bring up all kinds of ideas for crockpot meals. You pin the post to your board and then you look at it later when you have time.

It is how I find so many freezer meals and weight watcher meals to cook. I pin it when I am bored and need to pass time and then when I am ready to write down the recipe I go pull it up and write it down.

They have anything and everything.

The other day, I had to laugh... I was talking to my husband about it and he said that they wouldn't have RC drift cars on there. I should have made a little bet with him, because I knew they did. I said, oh yea... I pulled out my phone and searched and showed him all the different things that pulled up with that search. He was amazed.

I have so many ideas for card making, scrapbooking, sewing, crocheting, etc that I am super excited to put some of those ideas into play down the road...

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Happy birthday to the most amazing woman I know...

Today is my momma's birthday! I am truly honored to be this woman's daughter. She is the most amazing woman I know and I grow closer to her as the years go by. I know when I was younger I didn't want anything to do with my parents. It is so funny how as you get older and have a family of your own that all changes. 

This woman has been my rock throughout my whole life. Yes, we haven't always agreed on things, but we have always been there for each other. I love her more than she will EVER know.

Happy birthday my dear momma. I hope you have a wonderful birthday!

Wednesday, April 15, 2015

Surgery for my baby girl...

My life as a mother has definitely been the best years of my life. I never expected to love something so much or to worry about someone as much as I worry about  my little 7 year old. The years have flown by so far and I want her to stay little forever, but that will never happen.

She is having her first surgery next Tuesday at 1 pm. I am a nervous wreck about the whole process, but it is what is needed for her and I am ready to get it over with. It will be oral surgery, but they still have to put her to sleep to do the work.

She has an extra tooth on her top and it is preventing her 2nd permanent tooth from coming out. It is snuggled up into the 1st permanent tooth that is already out, but because of its location the 2nd one can't come out until it is gone. So, they will put her to sleep and then remove the extra tooth. In order to do that they have to remove some of the bone to get it out. Then they will remove her baby tooth that is there to make room for the 2nd permanent tooth to come out. They will sew her up and she will be done. They will spend some time waking her up and then I will be able to see her. I am going to be a nervous wreck for the 2 hours before I can see her again, but I have faith in the team that will be doing the work.

She will be home from school for 2 days and then if the pain is not as bad she will go back to school on Thursday. Her 1st permanent tooth could be loose for 2 weeks while that bone grows back, but we will have to just watch what she eats and make sure she eats with her back teeth and not her front. After 2 months she will be healed completely. They say after a month she won't notice anything anymore, so I am praying for a quick healing process...

She has had a broken wrist on her right, a fractured wrist on her left and a fractured finger. I can handle the broken bones, but the surgeries are a different story....

If you are a prayer, we could definitely use some prayers during this time...

Friday, April 10, 2015

Momma's Cooking

My momma's cooking is probably the best I have ever eaten. There is just something about your momma's cooking that just hits the spot. No matter how many times I make a recipe of hers, it will NEVER be the way she makes it. I tend to think, just knowing she made it with love, makes the recipe taste so much better!

A few of my momma's recipes that I absolutely love are:

Roast, rice and gravy
Fried Shrimp
Pork Chops and Mashed Potatoes
Chocolate Yummy

What is your favorite recipes that your momma makes?

Monday, April 6, 2015

Handwritten Letters

Do you think hand written letters are a thing of the past?

I do believe that it is a thing of the past for many people. They have e-mail now and Facebook and many different ways to communicate verses writing hand written letters.

Me on the other hand, I love writing letters. I don't do it nearly as much as I use to, but I have started doing it again and I am trying to write at least 2-3 a month to different family members. Mostly my aunts who do not have a computer and I want to be able to keep in contact with them. And the others would be my nieces and nephews. I remember when I was little I loved getting mail from my aunt who lived in San Antonio. We would write back and forth and it was a lot of fun. I am not sure my nieces and nephews will find this fun, but I want to make sure I send them stuff throughout their life so they know I was trying :)

I am going to get my daughter into it so she can send letters as she gets older to her family down south. It will be fun for her to do and to get stuff back!

Friday, April 3, 2015

Mommy Survey

Here you go mommies - a different kind of survey for a change - it's all about your first born! 

Let's see how much you remember!

3. WHAT WAS YOUR REACTION? I was very excited, but nervous.
7. WHO DID YOU TELL FIRST? Her dad, then my best friend Jenn
9. DUE DATE? 3/24/2008
10. DID YOU HAVE MORNING SICKNESS? Not during the first 2 trimesters, but a little in the 3rd
11. WHAT DID YOU CRAVE? MILK. If you know me, you know this is really weird!
12. WHO/WHAT IRRITATED YOU THE MOST? The amount of bathroom visits I had to make.
16. DID YOU HAVE A BABY SHOWER? Yes. One in Louisiana and one in Washington.
17. WAS IT A SURPRISE OR DID YOU KNOW? I knew about both of them.
19. WHERE DID YOU GIVE BIRTH? Valley Medical in Renton
22. WHO WATCHED YOU GIVE BIRTH? Her dad and the nurses and doctor.
24. DID YOU TAKE MEDICINE TO EASE THE PAIN? Yes. I had an epidural and pain meds during the c-section.
27. HOW MUCH DID YOUR CHILD WEIGH? 8 lbs and 15 oz
31. HOW OLD IS YOUR FIRST BORN TODAY? She just turned 7...
I can't believe time flies so fast!

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Happy birthday to the first man I ever loved..

This man is so amazing. He was my first love... I was definitely a daddy's girl growing up and I am still to this day. He is my biggest inspiration. I love him dearly and I hope he has a very special birthday!!!!

I miss and love you so much daddy!

Happy birthday to you!

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Happy birthday to ME!

For my birthday, I told my husband that I wanted to go see the new Fast and Furious movie on the day it came out at the IPic theater in Redmond. It is a theater where you buy your tickets in advance and you sit in a recliner. They serve you dinner and dessert while you watch the movie. It is just a very fun experience. Because the tickets are a bit more than going to the normal theater we hardly ever go. So, we managed to get advance tickets to this movie and we are going to go to the Lounge there and have dinner and then enjoy dessert while watching the movie. It is going to be a great date night out with my best friends, Jenn and Tom. The kids will be spending the night with Grandma Diane and then going on a bike ride the following morning. It is a win win all the way around... 


Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Happy birthday to my first best friend...

33 years go I met a girl who would forever be my best friend. We started playing together when we were 2 and we just became best friends. Her mom and dad became my 2nd mom and dad and mine became hers. We grew up doing everything together. As we got into our teenage years we weren't as close as we were when we were younger, but she was still my best friend through it all. We have definitely been through some of the toughest things together... As we have gotten older we have gotten closer again... We always joked when we were younger that one day we would be sisters and today that is the case. She married my middle brother in 2012 and I love it. They are so happy and in love its just awesome! And bonus... she is now my sister. 

We have been through many ups and downs and many really great ups and many bad downs. But we have walked through it all together and we will always go through things together. I love her dearly and she means the world to me.

We might not talk every day but we know we are there for each other when needed!

So, happy 35th birthday my dear best friend. You are OLDER than me hahaha. I love you dearly and I am so thankful that you were placed in my life! I wouldn't have gotten through my teenage years without you LOL... 

Monday, March 16, 2015

Exceeds expectations...

C got her report card on Friday and let me tell you it was a great way to start our weekend.

She meets expectations in most of the areas she is tested  on. She got 2 exceeds expectations on 2 sections of math. And she even got an exceeds expectations for her LISTENING skills. That made me a happy momma. That is my girl. 

What a great start to our weekend. Looking for her end of the year report card and seeing how she improved.

Definitely a proud momma here.

Frozen party

We had C's birthday party this past Saturday and boy was it a blast. I think she had a lot of fun.

There were 12 kids there throughout the evening and lots of parents. She even had 2 school friends there. We had a pizza party. After everyone ate dinner, we sang happy birthday and then she opened presents. She got so many awesome gifts. We are truly thankful for all of the friends and family that showed up.

My friend Jenn and Tom made a whole bunch of stuff for a frozen photo booth. They had a big poloroid and then different props for the booth. There was a snowflake background and the kids loved every part of it. We were able to take many wonderful pictures...

I still can't believe that my baby girl is 7. Time does fly by...

Thursday, March 12, 2015

A letter to my mother in law...

My mother in law speaks Spanish only. My goal is to learn Spanish so one day I can have a conversation with her. 

Dear sweet mother in law...

Over 38 years ago you brought my loving husband into the world and on that day God knew that he would bring him into my life. God knew that our paths would cross when the time was right. I thank you every day for this gem that I get to call my husband. He is an amazing man and our lives have been blessed by him being in it. He is such a loving and caring man and he loves our family so much! He is a hard worker and for that I thank you! He talks about how hard you worked as they were growing up and I see that he gets that hard work mentality from you! He does what he has to for his family and he wants to give us everything we need and want.

I appreciate you and I have never met you. I love you and I have never talked to you! Thank you for blessing me with the most amazing gift... You had him, but God placed him in my life. I dream of the day that we get to sit and have a conversation together! 

I pray for good health and love over the year and until the day we can sit and visit, take care dear mother in law!

Love your daughter in law... 

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Something you are passionate about...

This would definitely be MOPS.

MOPS stands for mothers of preschoolers. It is from kids from birth through kindergarten. The group gets together as women and we support, encourage and just be there for each other as we go through the struggles of being a mother, wife, friend, daughter, etc. My favorite motto of MOPS is = NO MOM ALONE!

I found this group in 2011 when my husband brought me to his church at Overcomer Covenant Church. Shortly after attending church I fell in love with all things OCC. In February of that year I heard of MOPS and my daughter at the time was 3 so I was like this sounds awesome. I went to my first meeting and LOVED it. I quickly joined and my life has forever been changed. In 2013 I joined for my first leadership role as being a table leader. I would have my own table filled with awesome ladies who would need love and I was the one that would be giving it to them. I would give them all their news they needed and just make sure they knew all the dates coming up and all the fun things to do with our group. In 2014 I was asked to be the new co-coordinator for the group. After much praying I decided to take the role. It has been an amazing experience and definitely one that I will never forget. It has grown me as a person in so many ways. I love my MOPS group and my MOPS ladies and will always be a part of MOPS in some way... at the end of last year I was suppose to graduate out of MOPS due to C graduating from kindergarten, but they grandfathered me in by being the co-coordinator.

Unfortunately due to my recent health issues that I have going on, I am going to walk away from the position of co-coordinator and that means no more MOPS groups for me, unless I want to find a MOPS next group somewhere else. Not being at my church will be different, but that will be down the road. I need to walk away from as much stress as I can and this is by far my biggest stressors right now in my life. I know that God will place someone amazing to step up and take my place for next year. I have been praying about it and I know the other leaders have been as well! I will forever be grateful to my MOPS group and I am not gone forever. There are many different roles I can take on down the road once I have had some time to heal and get healthier... I am not gone for good :)

If you are interested in this group, I highly recommend it. Remember it is run by mothers and sometimes things don't go as planned or perfectly, but being together for that time together is worth it. Also... there is childcare :) Our group has free childcare, but other groups might charge a small fee... If you are interested please let me know. I know any group would love to have you!

Please let me know if you have any questions!

What are you passionate about?

Monday, March 2, 2015

Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Month

Today I am posting in honor of my Aunt who has MS. She is an amazing woman and she just so happens to be my god mother. I love this woman more than she will ever know and I am truly blessed that she is a part of my life.

March is MS awareness month and I wanted to share a few facts that I found on the MS Foundation website.

Facts About MS

  • More than 400,000 people in the United States have MS.
  • An estimated 2,500,000 around the world have MS.
  • About 45 percent of the people with MS are not severely affected by the disease.
  • Diagnosis of MS is usually between 20 and 40 years of age.
  • MS affects more women than men, with a ratio of 2:1.
  • About 85 percent of those who are newly diagnosed have the relapsing-remitting form of MS.
  • Without disease-modifying therapy, about 50 percent of those diagnosed with relapsing-remitting MS will become progressive at 10 years.
  • Without disease-modifying therapy, about one-third of those diagnosed with relapsing-remitting MS will be using a wheelchair at 20 years.
  • MS does not significantly affect life span.
  • The course of the disease is unpredictable and no two people will experience the same set of symptoms.
  • There are four types of MS:  relapsing-remitting, secondary-progressive, primary progressive and progressive relapsing.
  • Among young adults, MS is the most common disease of the central nervous system.
  • Fatigue is one of the most common symptoms of MS.
  • MS is not contagious.
  • MS is a progressive disease for which there is not yet a cure.
  • Increased understanding of MS has led to the development of many new treatments that target both the disease process and its many symptoms.
  • In countries further from the equator, the incidence of MS increases.
  • Sclerosis is a Greek word meaning hardening of tissue or scars.
  • MS is not inherited or genetically transmitted, although there does seem to be some genetic susceptibility to the disease.
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Sunday, March 1, 2015

Scariest Mom Moment Part 4

My heart always drops when I get a call from C's school. I know it means something happened and I need to go get her, but for the first few seconds my heart stops.

This time C smashed her fingers in a door. I was confused for a second on why I would have to come get her. Put some ice on it and call it good. Apparently it was hurting her so bad she wouldn't stop crying.

I drove to school to pick her up and in her face I could see it... she broke her finger. They said that it probably is just bruised, but a momma knows her child's face and her cries. I called her doctor and they had an opening so we headed in. We went to see the doctor and then went to get her hand x-rayed. She had a hair line fracture in her finger. It wasn't bad enough that we needed to put a cast on or to wrap her fingers. He bandaged them up and we were off. She tore part of her skin off so you could see her nail exposed under the skin. It was definitely not pretty.

It naturally healed on its own in a few weeks.

Saturday, February 28, 2015

Scariest Mom Moment Part 3

Another scary moment for me was when I went to pick up my daughter from school one day... At this time she was in kindergarten. I waited and waited and waited for her to come out. I saw her class line up along the school waiting for parents and I noticed there was a substitute teacher. I went up and told her that my daughter is not with the class and I asked where she was. She said the principle wanted to talk with her.

I walked to the front office and only then did I realize that not only did the principal want to talk to her, but in calling her name at recess, she lost her footing and fell onto the ground and hurt her left wrist. In talking with my daughter I realized that she had a break in her wrist. Us mom's know our kids when they are in pain and when its not just a normal fall pain.

We left the school and headed to the urgent care. We waited to be called back to the room... where we waited some more time for the doctor to come in... Once he did, he said it didn't look broken, but they would x-ray it anyway. In the x-ray room she took the picture and I knew that what I was looking at was my daughters 2nd broken bone.

The break wasn't as bad as her first broken bone so we didn't need a cast, but she had to stay in a brace for 6 weeks. Thank God it was her left wrist so she could keep writing at school!

Friday, February 27, 2015

Scariest Mom Moment Part 2

This by far was one of the scariest mom moment so far in my adventure as a mother!

We were at my friends house and we were having dinner. C was currently in preschool. 6 weeks after she was born my best friend decided she would watch her for me while I went to work. She stayed home with her son, and she made some money watching C, so it was just a win win for us both. I was super comfortable with that decision and she loved C. So, she was grew up going up and down the stairs at her aunts house.

Well, this day was an off day for her, because she lost her footing and tumbled down her aunts stairs. Her uncle and I were watching this happen in slow motion as we both tried to get to her before she hit the bottom of the stairs but that didn't happen. She landed at the bottom catching her self with her right arm and then constant tears. It was a hard fall so I knew she was in pain.

She moved it a little here and there over the course of the evening and then the next morning she woke up crying and said it hurt so much. I ended up taking her in to her doctor who sent us down to get an x-ray. We did that and then we were back in the waiting room. Minutes went by and at that moment it felt like hours waiting. Her doctor came in and said that she did have a broken wrist and she needed to go get a cast. We were then sent to a place down in Tacoma by the hospital to get her cast.

We got there and waited and then we were brought back. They did another x-ray because the one they did at Auburn wasn't sent over like it was suppose to. They then proceeded to get the stuff set up for her to get her cast. She chose a hot pink cast which was an awesome choice. She was such a brave little girl throughout the whole process... it was the longest 6 weeks of our life, but she did so well with it...

What an experience in our lives and she was only 4...

Thursday, February 26, 2015

Scariest Mom Moment Part 1

The scariest moment in my life as a mom so far was definitely our ER visit when my baby girl was a little under 2 years old. She got sick and eventually she started not acting like herself. I ended up talking to her doctor multiple times and the end result ended up with me taking her into the ER. I got to the ER at 7 pm one night and it was a very long night. Around 9 pm my best friend came and brought us juice and some snacks... We went back to back and we waited and waited. Finally they decided that she was dehydrated and they needed to start an IV. After the 4th poke and the 3rd person tried, I was done watching my baby scream. They ended up calling a nurse from the NICU ward and she was able to get her IV in with one try.

It was a very long night and we ended up leaving the hospital at 4 am. The next day you could see she was doing much better, but what a stressful exhausting night for all of us.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

My husband is awesome because...

He has loved me unconditionally since the day we met. We might not always get along and we argue here and there, but that man loves me more than I have ever experienced before. He is a hard worker who does what he has to do for his family... The girls and I are his top priority and he makes sure he works hard to get the bills paid and get money that we need for them.

I love that he likes to do his own hobbies and always wonders why I let him do his own things. I love that he has hobbies and I love watching his excitement as he does them. I love listening to him talk about our future and the things he wants to do together as we grow older. I love sitting with him and listening to him talk about what he wants to do with this and with that. He loves helping others and that love for helping others makes me love him more. I love talking about our future watching our daughters grow up and I love making plans with him to go on family trips and to go on couples trips and going on trips just the 2 of us.

He compliments me all the time and he always makes me feel loved. When we are not at work we are always together and doing something. We love to just relax and watch our shows or watch movies. We love spending time with our girls when they are with us. I love his desire to please me and make me happy. It is what keeps our love alive and I look forward to spending the rest of my life with this man. He is the love of my life and I love him so much! He has changed my life for the better and I thank God daily for bringing this amazing man into my life! God sure knew what he was doing and our lives have been blessed so much because of HIM!

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Hardest struggle so far...

By far my hardest struggle in my life is my weight. I have never been the skinniest person and I never will be. I like having some meat on my bones, but after so many things in my life I have gained weight that needs to come off. I have tried so many things to get this down to where I would like to be but I haven't stuck with anything...

I have tried diet pills, HCG, a personal trainer and all worked for a short time, but nothing stuck with me. I think weight watchers was the one that worked the best because I got results daily if not every other day... the personal trainer I did for 7 months, but after no weight loss I was done. I was told you are losing inches so that's great... but my goal was to lose weight. If I can't do your programs without losing any weight and only inches, it is not a good fit for me. When I did the HCG injections it worked wonders... I lost over 50 lbs and loved it... but I should have stopped there and started weight watchers to finish off my weight loss goal and I would be almost there. But instead I didn't and I went right back to eating the way I did before.

It is a life changing thing that needs to happen to keep the weight off... our family is going to go through that this year in 2015. I am back on weight watchers and working out more and together we will all get in the shape we all need to be in. This has been my biggest struggle in my life and I am ready to get healthier and hopefully with losing weight my health issues will slow down and be gone for a while!

For those struggling, just now that you are not alone! 

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

What makes a best friend?

This is my best friend... I can not imagine my life without her... 
She has been through so much with me and I am so thankful for her!

We met in 2006 and ever since that day it is like we just new we would be the best of friends. She proved it to me with standing with me for my first marriage in my wedding. We had only been friends for 7 months and she accepted the bridesmaid position with no hesitation... She walked through my pregnancy with me. She was my go to for everything and she still is. I would ask her question after question about my pregnancy. It was my first child and she had 2 so I had so many questions I wasn't sure of. She was there the day my daughter was born. She was in the room as I pushed for 2 hours with no result... she would have been in the operating room with me when I had to get an emergency c-section, as well, but they only let one person in. She didn't leave my side at all... she was up with me at night when I had uncomfortable moments... she was there when I got my epidural, she was right there! She was the 3rd person to hold my baby girl after she was born besides the doctor and nurses. 6 weeks later when it was time for me to go back to work she lovingly accepted the job of watching C during the day. Her son was at home and she decided to stay at home until he started school. So, Aunt Jenn was it... she was the one that watched her for me. Talk about easing my emotions of going back to work. I was so comfortable with her that it was not as hard as I had feared it would ever be. She was there every step of the way my divorce with my ex-husband. She commented when I asked for her opinion or thoughts, but she mostly listened to me during this time. She was right there with me through another failed relationship... She was there while I was dating my current husband... She was standing beside me when I got married on a mountain with my husband... We have taken trips together... we have watched each others kids... we know if there is a need, we are there for each other with no questions asked. 

So, I would definitely say what makes a best friend is someone who is there for you through the good times and the bad times with no judgement. They are there with no questions asked. They love and support through every part of your life... I love this girl with all my heart and she has been there in so many ways. She has saved my life and made me a better person. She loves my daughter like one of her own and that is really all that matters. God knew what he was doing when he put us together! Truly blessed!

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Why do you love your job?

I work for my boss who is an agent for Farmers Insurance. I have been working with him for the last 14 and a half years. It has been a long time, but it has been an awesome time as well. I absolutely love our clients and over 14 years you form relationships with these people.

My boss is an amazing boss to work for. Once my daughter was born I told him that my family comes first and he understood that because he ran a business with kids for years. When she would get sick, I would bring her into the office. When she is off school she comes and hangs out with us at work. She has her own little corner of the room and I set her up with the laptop to watch movies and she plays on her netbook and just enjoys the time here. She gets bored sometimes, but she does really well!

I have all of my insurance licenses for Property and Casualty as well as Life and Disability. The life license has taken me forever to get, but I was so happy when I finally passed. It was a great day :)

I love my job and I look forward to growing the business and making new relationships with our clients!

Monday, February 2, 2015

The best days of your life so far...

There are a numerous amounts of days that I consider to be some of my best days... 

To name a few are:

  • The day I was asked to be a godmother to my 3 beautiful angels... 
  • The day I graduated college
  • The day my daughter was born
  • The day I met my husband
  • The day I met my new daughter
  • The day we got married on a mountain on Orcas Island
  • The day I met my new daughter
  • Any adventures my husband and I have taken together, whether it be a stressful vacation or a relaxing one... they are all my best times in my life so far...

Friday, January 30, 2015

I am not a perfect mom...

I am not a perfect mom... I am not a perfect person... I am not a perfect wife... I am not a perfect daughter... I am not a perfect wife... I am not perfect and I never will be.

I am a person who tries her best to do things for anyone I can. I am a person who loves with her whole heart and for that sometimes I get hurt in return. I am a person who will give anything just to make sure her daughter has the best of everything I can offer. I do not have the perfect body and I never will... but I do have a perfect understanding of who I am and I love myself.

I will never be perfect, but then again I don't want to be perfect. I am who I am and I love me!

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Honest Confession about Motherhood

Being a mother is hard work. It is not easy and it never will be. Don't get me wrong, I have easy moments. There are days that things are awesome and we have no issues or struggles. And then there are days where I get called by her school because my daughter has broken something or has fallen. We have moments where my daughter and I do not get along at all and then there are moments where we get along great. 

There are nights where they are sick and there is nothing you can do but be there for them and sometimes that is enough. There are many sleepless nights and many tears that you will go through over the course of motherhood. 

It is not a walk in the park and it is not always fun, but it is worth every second... I would definitely do motherhood all over again if I had a choice. I love being a mother and my daughter is my world!

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Scariest Moment of your Life

My scariest moments of my life would be by far each ER visit I have to take my daughter to... There have been a few times over her lifetime and each time its very scary thinking my daughter is hurt and needs more help than you can give her.

There is just no worse feeling than watching your daughter go through an ER visit and be right there with her but know you can't help her the way she needs help. The cries and the looks of her being scared are enough to break me down!

Each visit we made it out just fine and with her feeling much better...

Friday, January 2, 2015

Live Life... ENJOY LIFE!

Life's Little Instructions by William Snell

Sing in the shower. Treat everyone you met like you would want to be treated. Watch a sunrise at least once a year. Leave the toilet seat in the down position. Never refuse homemade brownies. Strive for Excellence, not Perfection! Plant a tree on your birthday. Learn three clean jokes. Return borrowed vehicles with the gas tank full. Compliment 3 people every day. Never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them. Leave everything a little better than you found it. Keep it simple. Think big thoughts but relish small pleasures. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know. Floss your teeth. Ask for a raise when you feel you've earned it. Be forgiving of yourself and others. Over tip breakfast waitresses. Say thank you a lot. Say please a lot. Avoid negative people. Buy whatever kids are selling on card tables in their front yard. Wear polished shoes. Remember other people's birthday's. Commit yourself to constant improvements. Carry jumper cables in your trunk. Have a firm handshake. Send lots of Valentine's cards and sign them: "Someone things you're terrific." Look people in the eye. Be the first to say hello. Use the gold silver. Return all things you borrow. Make new friends but cherish the old ones. Keep secrets. Sing in a choir. PLANT flowers every spring. Have a dog. Always accept an outstretched hand. Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life. Wave at kids on school buses. Be there when people need you. Feed a stranger's expired parking meter. Don't expect life to be fair. Never underestimate the power of love. Live your life as an exclamation, not an explanation. Don't be afraid to say, "I made a mistake." Don't be afraid to say, "I don't know." Compliment even small improvements. Keep your promises (no matter what). Marry only for love. Rekindle old friendships. Count your blessings. Call your mother...

Another quote I love is:

"Tomorrow, is the first blank page of a 365 page book... write a good one! " - Brad Paisley